Sunday, January 30, 2011


Eiffel Tower

Yep, I'm still here. Though you wouldn't really know it. Like many others around Brisbane at the moment I think I've been suffering a little from survivor guilt. I also think that's been exacerbated by the fact that I work in a high end linen store and people are starting to come in getting quotes for their insurance companies and some are replacing some of the things they have lost in the floods, so I get daily reminders of just how much people have lost. I am by nature a very empathetic person, and have always seemed to attract people wanting to share their life story, so I'm hearing many tales of loss from many different people.

I'm finding it hard to concentrate on any one thing in particular, I've got no interest in any crafting (though there are some little ideas on things bubbling away), no interest in my new photo blog. I'm even finding it hard to get myself excited by my trip to France, and we fly out in only 9 weeks! I've done no real preparations, I've got no luggage, no real wardrobe, argh!

So bare with me as pull myself out of this little funk. I have so many things to be grateful for and happy about, I just need to remind myself of that and gain back my sewjo.


Marg said...

That must be difficult, but I'm sure you listening to them when they want to talk is of great help to them.
Nine weeks is still a long way off, I wouldn't be panicking about being organised for your trip just yet.

aracne said...

Dear Selina,
this is a passage phase between loss and reconstruction. You are right in the middle of it, if you had suffered loss you wouldn't be in the position of helping those who did. This is your role at the moment, no survivor guilt, probably it was meant to be this way. I am sure that you are doing a great job conforting people who suffer.

The Clip Cafe said...

Oh I am feeling for you having to deal with this phase in your life. I can only imagine, not having been through it. I guess just focus on the positives. I am sure you are doing a lot of good you may not even realize. Thanks for visiting my blog :-) Ps I feel funny even mentioning this now (but you did ask about the fabric) I got it at spotlight xxhugsxx

Kirsty@Bonjour said...

It's good that you can lend an ear Selina, it does help. You'll work your way out of this, as the trip gets closer I think you will be pushed into getting organised and this will take up more of your mental energy. It's hard after such a big, traumatic incident, but keep in there, the only way is forward, a bit at a time. x x x

Anonymous said...

it's lovely you are such a good listener and it means you are not selfish at all by just concentrating on your own wonderful trip but I am sure you will in a few weeks and hey if you don't get excited I will happily go for you I have wanted to go to zFrance nearly all my life xx

Catherine said...

Selina, I think everyone's already said it, but your listening to people must be helping a lot (even though it's so hard on you). I hope you get some time to shift focus to your travels - ah, France, even my 3 year old is jealous (although, frankly I think France would be somewhat wasted on a 3 year old!) - and rediscover your sewjo xx